I *had* to do it. I had known for some time that I needed to be elsewhere, in a different life, because I did not want to say, at some hopefully far-distant day when I'm near the end of my life, "I wonder what would have happened if..." I did not want fear to keep me from fully living -- fear, nor complacency, nor indecision, nor codependence, nor the expectations of other people. I did not want to settle for the life I had.
I visited California on a business trip earlier that year for 10 days, and knew almost from the moment the plane touched down that I needed to be here. I'd never had any desire to live here until that time. And after that, I explored every possible avenue to find a way to come. Persistence paid off -- that, and some colleagues who believed in me--and my company created a job for me in the Bay Area where there were two offices.
It was the best move I ever made.
If I'd been told then that 10 years later I'd live in a little town in northern California with a husband I adore, living on land with a house I got to plan, and that I'd sell real estate, I'd have wondered what they were smoking. And dismissed it as pure fantasy.
What I've learned in the past 10 years:
- I can do just about anything if I'm willing to work at it and am patient. And persistent.
- I am a loving and very loved woman who has discovered wonderful things about this body -- and a little more about taking care of it.
- There are soulmates. I never expected such love to come to me, and I am deeply grateful every single day for my husband.
- If you wait to seek happiness until you have a job, a house, a car, a child, lose weight, stop smoking, whatever -- you will never have it. Life is in this moment: it is all we have, one moment at a time.
- If you don't like where you are, who you are, or what you have, change it. You are the decider of your life's path, and of who you are.
- It is never too late to change. Not until you are expelling your last breath.
I am grateful and blessed. Thanks be.