Aw, crap

Mercury is once again in retrograde, which means that communication is likely to be difficult on many fronts, and mistakes are likely in anything written.

And today is one of those days when the energy is just off. At least mine is, and my daughters are having their own issues today as well. Princess #1 is trying to cope with some depression stuff, and at 7 a.m. was not doing well -- I hope she is by now. That's not a good way to begin the day, however, for either of us.

And Princess #3 is likely to have her baby tonight, a few days earlier than expected, because of some health issues. It should work out -- her significant other was in San Francisco at least rather than much farther away, and is headed back at this writing, so he should be there in ample time, and the docs have delayed the process (it's by C-section) accordingly. She was trying to cope as well.

And of course I have deadlines, so am stewing over meeting those. And we have our own little health repairs scattered over the next few months, so there is a sense of needing to tidy up loose ends.

I feel a little out of sorts -- not crabby, not frantic, just not balanced. A little concerned for the well-being of my daughters, and also aware that there is absolutely not one thing I can do to make things better for them, other than being here to listen when they call. Which I'm very glad that they do.

I don't like feeling out of balance, unsettled and a little emotional...I think weather has not helped either: it's been windy for two days, and everyone including the cats gets a little edgy with it. The deer are simply not around -- I think they hide in the low places when it's like this.

Tomorrow will be different, at least, and hopefully some of today's problems will be resolved in a good way. The universe is still at odds until June 19, but maybe I'll cope with it better.

The times, they are a'changing....

I knew something was going on in the universe. It's that old meddler Mercury again, messing with data and machines and schedules. It's a good time to catch up on projects, and that's what I've been doing -- finishing up a number of things undone, although some of them are likely to keep coming back for a while.

Communication is where I've noticed it most, though, especially with our daughters. Phone calls made and not returned. E-mails sent into the ozone. Misinterpretations of innocently-written words, or actions. Eh.

It'll be over in another week or so, until the next time, and I suppose it hasn't been too bad. Change is coming, though -- I see it, I feel it, I can almost smell it.

And maybe it's time. Of course it's time! What am I saying...

When you stop changing, you're dead -- and I've known some folks who had a pulse, but sure weren't among the living. Change brings us growth, sometimes painful. It stimulates, challenges, rewards, irritates, frustrates. Every so often, we need to invite change into our lives to shake things up, so we don't stagnate in thinking and being and doing.

Mercury sort of pushes that along three times yearly by making sure we check and double-check, or suffer the consequences. You think once, twice, and yet again. And then leap.

I'm grateful for change and for growth tonight, although it's easier to take when it happens to ME, and not to my children. I'm watching painful change from afar, and it remains to be seen if any growth happens as a result. I'm praying for that for them.

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Fire is still raging in the Tahoe area. This has been such a dry year that it is especially worrisome -- Mt. Lassen already looks bare, and it's just June. Since we've been here, it will lose the snow by sometime in August, perhaps, but this seems early. Friends who just camped in the mountains said that their usual campsite was dry-- last year it was a wide, rushing stream at this time. It is a time for caution and care.